There’s nothing like a good tea spilling to end the week.
I want this type of post to be in the same vein as my previous posts labeled, “Metamorphosis,” because while the topic is still largely about change, it’s more about life, and all the details and advice that comes with talking about it.
The tea, if you will.
So I’m in one of those moments in life where I was in a funk, but I started to take small steps to get me out of it. I don’t even mean just creatively, I mean I was pretty much stagnant in life, and nothing was happening.
Except, as I’ve mentioned, I took small steps. I went from being exhausted thinking about writing, to having three different projects and still feeling like I wanted more. It’s like when I wake up in the morning and I have that crushing urge for coffee (seriously, you don’t want to get in the way of me and coffee in the morning) but for wanting new projects.
I started a small commitment of reading at least one book a month, but I felt like maybe that wasn’t enough too…
(Which is crazy because in this day and age, a 300+ page book is definitely a hard Commitment, capital C and all).
I recently had a job interview which people around me said sounded like it went well. That’s exciting! But I also didn’t really take the time to be happy that it apparently “went well.” All I could think about is, “Okay, what’s next? What’s the next thing I have to do?” The interview and the subsequent thoughts happened recently, but they’re indicative of a type of thinking that I’ve finally caught myself having.
Why is it that I can’t just sit back and be thankful for where I am right now in the moment?
Like, okay, yes it’s great to have ambitions, to want to always grasp the next building block that will get me higher and higher to a larger life goal I want to reach. But to get there I need to appreciate the building blocks I already passed.
So, I have three writing projects I’m working on, one of which is this website. That’s great! That’s enough for right now. Between script writing, and novel writing, and maintaining two posts a month on here, I am doing just fine for someone non-published. I decided I wanted to read at least one book a month and that is just fine for someone who fell off from reading. Hearing that an interview for a job I really wanted went well is enough for someone who is unemployed. I have to learn to take these little victories because I am the only one who can claim them .
They’re my victories.
So I’m taking my frustration about this and writing it here for me and for anyone else reading this to see. Please, take a moment to appreciate the building blocks you left behind. You’ll realize you are further along than you knew, and we’re all taking our individual steps to do more and get better.
Café Brando 